Thursday, May 15, 2008

Exploding Little Men

There's a little man in our backyard right now, and I'm a little worried that he's going to blow up any minute now. This isn't some kind of euphemism or anything like that. He's mowing our yard. And I have two open gas tanks sitting back there.

I don't really know where he came from or WHY he's mowing our yard in particular... maybe he works for the realtor? He's wearing one of those bucket hats that were all so popular in late middle school/early high school. I kind of wonder how he got to be where he is and all that, but I'm mostly just concerned that he doesn't blow up. I also recently (aka this morning before he started mowing back there) dumped gasoline on some weeds to kill them. Just thought I'd share.

Back to studying/working on Stacey.

Monday, May 12, 2008

Hurdles

Just finished my OCP... that's Oral Case Presentation to the layman. I'm sitting in an art-deco meets preschool 5th floor lounge set aside for the few, the proud, the classroom-bound medical students. I should be reworking my pharm cases, but I wanted to blog.

Hurdles. Hurdles define this year for me. I only actually tried running hurdles once or twice in middle school, but from what I remember, it goes something like this:

1. start running as fast as you can
2. realized there is a big metal thing in your way
3. awkwardly jump over it and try not to wipe out on the landing
4. realize you're still alive, upright and still propelling forward
5. repeat

As much as anyone enjoys running hurdles, everyone has a breaking point where they wear out. You have to stop, catch your breath, reflect, refresh and possibly regurgitate, before starting the next race. I mostly have felt this year that I was in the middle of the race: sprint, leap, land, repeat without much of a chance to catch my breath. Some of the hurdles were great: Spring Break skiing, a plethora of live musical performances, dinner with friends, parties, church... all good things... still hurdles.

I cherish the moments when I can lose myself in the moment and embrace the vigor of the race as lively and intense. Hanging from a rock wall, exploding a pocket of powder, absorbing full auditory and visual stimulation, savoring an exquisite taste... Flashes of full engagement. But even more do I enjoy the moments when I can look the next hurdle in the face with nonsensical peace and calmly engage in this path that has been chosen. I lost that feeling for a while this year, but was then reminded of the incredible power I have when I fall to the ground with my hands lifted up to my most gracious Father. Thank you.

Friday, May 2, 2008

The Gospel of the Birdcall of 9

Let me introduce this post in the most appropriate of post-introducing ways:

KA-REEEEER!!!!!

If you have no idea what that means, I'm sorry, for I feel that I have failed both you and those who have gone before me in the way of the Gospel of the Birdcall of 9. Please forgive me. For those who know EXACTLY what that means and all that it entails, I beg your forgiveness as well, for I have forgotten my past and that which has molded me.

I was riding my bike along the Burke-Gilman trail as I was on my way to class this morning. I spied, on the other side of Sand Point Way, a parallel friend strolling on her way to class. I wanted to get her attention and simultaneously tell her that I appreciated her as a friend and that seeing her makes me happy. The noise of the cars on the road, the fleeting nature of the moment and my own hesitation prevented the interaction, thus nipping in the bud the joy that could have been added to the day.

And that's when I remembered. I remembered how life used to be.

Flash back to Texas. It's a beautiful day, the sun is shining, the college students are swarming out of Chapel. And all of a sudden, it comes cracking through the din like a bolt slung by Thor: KA-REEER!!! and you turn, ka-reering in return, before your eyes even make contact, and then they do, and you smile, laugh and go on your way if you're busy, or perhaps stroll over and share the latest on the way to the Bean (school cafeteria).

Coming to a new place, leaving behind friends near and dear, the Way of the Birdcall has faded. But today, today I made a new commitment to share with others the Gospel of the Way of the Birdcall. I've told others of the joy of the Birdcall, I've convinced them of its beauty and authenticity at times. At other times, they've merely blown me off, not believing that something so noble could exist, or perhaps twisting the message in their minds and dismissing it as something childish and irrelevant in today's culture.

No longer will I settle for merely speaking of the Birdcall. No longer will I withhold a due birdcall in shame. I must show others the joy of living with the Birdcall. So today, as I crossed over the pedestrian overpass and looked up the street to see the picketers blowing their whistles and waving their signs, I encouraged them with a hearty sound. The man on his cell phone looked at me askance, but I detected a hint of smile in his eyes and knew that his day was better for having been a part of that moment.

I guess you could take this as a spiritual metaphor or whatever. To that, all I have to say is:

KAAAAAAAAA-REEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

Chasing Cars

Mom - you might, cancel that, you definitely, won't enjoy reading this one and will have a happier life if you just close the window now.

That warning also goes for the rest of you who don't believe that I am actually James Bond in disguise.

With that said, man, sometimes my life explodes in momentary bursts of awesomeness. Usually, not intentionally. Wednesday was just a typical day... met some random guy on the street in the U district to buy car speakers (woo hoo!), went to my tropical medicine class, sat through repro and path... blah blah blah... attended a training class so we can give free sports physicals to low-income middle-school kids, then hit up the climbing gym for a little while. It was when I realized that I had a 30 minute bike ride to complete and only 15 minutes before I had to be at Bethany Community Church that the trouble started.

I booked it up the Ave on my bike, snagged a left on Ravenna and was making good time. As I cruised up to the various stop signs, I would time myself so that I wouldn't have to actually stop, but could just ride in the shadow of a car that happened to be crossing the intersection at the same time as me. Make sense? I cross at the same time as a car, rather than trying to compete with everyone else for my turn at the stop sign.

So I was cruising up to the 5-way stop at Green-Lake that has lots of diagonals and weird turning patterns. It's confusing as heck. So I was more than happy to jump on the tail of a car in my lane that was just ahead of me. It was probably a little too far ahead of me in retrospect, but it seemed like a great idea at the time. So I was pedaling hard, trying to catch up to that car when my eyes got big and I saw the oncoming car turning right behind the car ahead of me... and accelerating.

I kept waiting for him to brake, to show some sign that he was acknowledging my presence on the road, but no, he was intent on getting through that hellish intersection at top speed. Neither slowing down nor speeding up was an option for me, so I elevated my center of gravity and prepared for impact.

It was spectacular. A brilliant crash swept my bike out from under me and threw me onto the hood of the speeding car, rolling me over before depositing me on the ground with a few more departing rolls for good measure. After taking a quick self-survey, I assessed that I was indeed still alive, and confirmed that my health had not rapidly deteriorated, information which I relayed to the concerned driver of the vehicle. Ensuring that all of my bodily parts were still intact, I straightened the handlebars on my bike, which had been thrown all out of whack, briefly looked for any debilitating deformations and hopped back on, determined not to miss my deadline.

I was stopped by a horde (two or three) of concerned passersby. They demanded that I must be injured after such an explosive interaction, but I assured them I was fine, wearing a helmet and that my training as a soccer goalie has indwelled me with sufficient falling skills to land on all the right parts.

I made it to my final destination on time and safely transported my passengers from downtown to their evening abode. Mission accomplished.